well...where do i start? I just started classes last tuesday...not even a week ago...and it feels like it was a month ago. I have had my moments...seriously doubting if I can do this. Covering a chapter of Chemistry a day, a quiz every day, plus 4-6 hrs. of homework a night...and my first exam is Wed. this week. My next exam is next week. What am I doing? It's good for humility to feel so incredibly stupid all the time. The people from my class are great...we've really bonded under the pressure...but they're still not my family yet...perhaps they will be by the end of the year.
So i was in mass last week...crying..praying for the strength to continue in this...doubting my abilities...and then I hear this passage in my heart "I am the LORD, the GOD of ALL creation. Is there anything too difficult for me?" (I don't remember where it's from off the top of my head but it's one of the ones my mom gave me when i went to Honduras). So I realized...God created chemistry...if anyone can teach it to me HE can. So I continue to plod along...struggling but growing daily in discipline and humility. I miss daily mass but there just isn't enough time in the day. I'm in the chemistry building from 7am to about 11pm. But I'm still praying...still trying to live my life how God has asked...and He is faithful. let me repeat...HE IS FAITHFUL!!!!
I still keep pictures of Honduras, people I respect and the reasons I want to be a physician in my books...dr. Carlos and Daysi have kept me going for many days now. I am constantly trying to keep in mind and in focus who i am and why I'm doing this.
Went to virginia beach again this past weekend...saw Graffiti gray with Jamie, Dani, Dan, Josh, and Gretchen. It was wonderful... The Sargents here in C.Ville have been INCREDIBLE...and God continues to open up doors and provide for me here. I know I'm in His will and HE IS FAITHFUL!!! So even in the craziness...I continue on. Please pray for me...as I do for all of you!!
Bueno...un resumen de nuevo. Yo empeze clases este martes pasado...incredible para creer fue hace menos una semana...siento como fue hace meses. Yo he tenido mis momentos...en serio dudando mi abilidad de hacer esto. Cubriendo una capitulo de quimica diaria, una prueba diaria, 4-6 horas de tarea cada noche, y mi primer examen Miercoles de este semana. La proxima en una semana...que estoy haciendo??? Viviendo quimica...y volviendo un poco loca. Es bueno para la humildad de sentir tan tonta (si saulito...abrelo tonta) todo el tiempo...GRACIAS A DIOS!! Pero la gente de mi programa son buenos...sentimos como hemos conocido los demas siempre...es extrano pero un donne de Dios. No son como mis amigos de Honduras...pero son mi salva vida ahorita.
Bueno...estaba en la misa la semana pasado. Llorando...dudando mi abilidad...y claro...rezando. Y escuche en mi corazon este escritura "Yo SOY el Senor. El Dios de TODO creacion. Hay algo que es demasiado dificle para mi?" (no se de donde es en este momento...tal vez de testamento viejo..pero no importa) Y en este momento yo recorde...Dios es el creador de Todo. El me ha puesto aqui...y si alguien puede ensanarme quimica es el persona que lo hizo. Entonces...sigo trabajando...intentando...luchando. Extrano misa diaria pero no hay tiempo. Vivo en la edificio de quimica desde 7am hasta 11pm. Pero estoy rezando...tal vez mas que antes. El es Fiel! puedo repitir DIOS ES FIEL!!! Se estoy donde El quiere...y el va a proveer para me. Estoy guardando fotos de los queridos y los para quien tengo respeto, mis inspiraciones para ser doctora. Tengo fotos en mis libros. Dr. Carlos y Daysi, y otros de las brigadas me han ayudado mucho en estos dias pasado. Estoy intentando siempre de recordar quien soy y porque estoy haciendo esto. Gracias a ellos por sus inspiraciones!!!
Fue a virginia Beach de nuevo este fin de semana...para ver un concierto con Jaime, Dani, Dan, Josh, y Gretchen. Fue bueno. La comunidad alla y aqui es un donne de Dios...estoy tan agradecida a El para darmelos. El esta proveendo para me una comunidad que puede levantarme cuando me caye. lo siento mi espanol es peor...pero estoy intentando de seguir usandolo. voy a empezar en el hospital pronto y ojala voy a tener un oportunidad de usarlo alla.
Entonces..."aun en la tormenta...aun en mi soledad...te alabo...te alabo en verdad.
Aun lejos de los mios...aun ....te alabo...te alabo en verdad!!!"
Les extrano MUCHISIMO todavia...estaba rezando para el pan de vida...ruegan para mi...como estoy rezando para uds. con todo mi ser!! Les quiero mas que puedo decir...
3 comments:
Yeah! Happy birthday to you! Happy schooling to you! Happy Crazy days to you! I hope you are well and know that you are in our prayers. And if you need a stress reliever, you can do the meme that I tagged you for on my blog. If you never get around to it or if that sounds totally unappealing thing to do in your "free time," by all means, don't do it. :)
I have enjoyed keeping up with you on your blog and I am very impressed by it's biligualness. :) God bless you. Love, Michelle
Hey! You are better than I am at keeping your blog VERY bilingual. You should include a picture of SBJ in your books so you can think where are you going to come and help MANY MANY people.
God made you smart because you had to face challenges like this one. You do your part and He will do his part.
You are in my prayers!
Jenny, my dear friend. I´m completely amazed by your strength and faith in Jesus. Don´t worry because he is ther e with you the hole time. Thank God you have your head kept busy all the time... May your studies be your daily prayer. Take care....I miss you so very much... Good luck in your up coming tests. Marissa
Post a Comment