Tuesday, April 22, 2008

quote for my life right now...cita para mi vida

"One thing Jesus asks of me: that I lean on him; that in him and only in him I put complete trust; that I surrender myself to him unreservedly. Even when all goes wrong and I feel as if I am a ship without a compass, I must give myself completely to him. I must not attempt to control God's action; I must not count the stages in the journey he would have me make. I must not desire a clear perception of my advance upon the road, must not know precisely where I am upon the way of holiness. I ask him to make a saint of me, yet I must leave to him the choice of the saintliness itself and still more the means which leads to it."
-Bl. Teresa of Calcutta

I remind myself of this daily...I beg for holiness but must allow Him to do as He wills. Jesus...I trust in YOU!!

"Una cosa Jesus pregunta de mi: que enclino en El; que el El y solo en El pongo todo mi confianza; que entrego mi misma a El sin reservaciones. Incluso cuando va todo mal y siento como soy barca sin compas, tengo que dar mi misma completamente a El. No puedo intentar controllar los acciones de Dios; yo puedo contar los nieveles de jornada El hizo que tomara. Yo no puedo desear una percepcion claro de mi avance en el camino, no puedo saber precisamente donde estoy en el camino de la santidad. Yo lo pregunto de hacerme una santa, pero tengo que dejarLo de elegir el typo de santidad y ademas, lo camino que me guia a la santidad." - Beata Madre Teresa

no se si la traduccion es correcto pero trato!!

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

meme

I was tagged by Michelle for this meme...and it's a happy one...so here goes..

Fun Meme

Rules of the meme:
1. Post these rules of the game first.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post, the player then tags 5 people and posts their names. Then the tagger goes to the blogs of those who have been tagged & leaves a comment letting new players know they’ve been tagged. The tagger asks them to find the meme and instructions back at his/her blog.

What I was doing 10 years ago:
10 years ago I was 14, almost fifteen...I would have been finishing my freshmen year in highschool. Right about this time I had just been chosen to be on the dance team and was preparing to finish classes and spending all day preparing for UDA camp over the summer. Other than that I really have no idea!! oh, and I was preparing to go to the Catholic Leadership Institute at Notre Dame over the summer. That's how I got involved with Diocesan Youth Board...I traveled a lot that summer I just don't remember what all I did.

Five things on my To Do List today:
1) read physics chapter on realtivity to prepare for the quiz I have in 2 hours
2) read physics chapter on atomic spectra to prepare for lab tonight
3) say the rosary/ pray
4) study for my organic chemistry exam
5) read about dissecting sheep hearts for lab tomorrow

Five things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1) finish builidng the missioners house in Honduras
2) tithe a lot of money to the church
3) invest
4) buy a house and some land and help daniel and michelle with the catholic couples community
5) support catholic missionaries, and the work of the church everywhere (ie. donate to homeless shelters, schools, etc) Whatever would help the poor the most...

sorry that's not a very good answer but I'm not a billionaire so it's hard for me to say

Three of my bad habits:
1) procrastinating
2) impatience and sarcasm
3) lack of prayer

Five places I have lived:
1) Honolulu, HI- II was born there and lived there for 3 years
2) Baton Rouge, LA- grew up there
3) Boston, MA- went to college there (wooohoo Go EAGLES)
4) Comayagua, Honduras- Catholic missionary there for 2 years
5) Charlottesville, VA- grad school here right now...

Five jobs I’ve had:
so technically I've never had a job because I never get paid for the things I do...but I'll put down some volunteer stuff
1). Catholic missionary in Honduras with Missioners of Christ
2) Children's Special Health Services- worked with the medicare clinic and help do intakes with patients, followed doctors around, pretended to be a med student
3) Assistant at my mom's office in high school- did weighing and measuring, and blood pressures on patients, filed charts, etc
4) Campus School Volunteers, Special Events chair- organized parties for special needs kids...I must say I did a rockin' good job too!!
5) babysitter...still do it...actually get paid for this one...and I LOVE IT!! :)


okay...I don't really have anyone to tag b/c I don't know anyone who michelle didn't already tag...so sorry the meme stops here!

thanks...Gracias!

thanks to everyone for their thoughts and prayers for this past weekend. It was difficult but joyful time for my family. I got to see my God children and the priest who did the service and my grandmother's last rights, is the same priest who did my grandfather's funeral, AND is good friends with my spiritual director. All in all, it was exhausting but good. It's a very weird experience to realize that that whole generation of my family is now gone. That aspect of my life, my home in Columbus, OH, is now over. I stood in the funeral home looking at my grandmother and it hit me when I touched her. How hard and cold she was. I'll never forget the first time I watched someone die...and this experience was much like that...it just hits you how quickly our lives are over...how little so many other things matter. I don't know...it's difficult to explain. I am extremely grateful however for the time I spent with my grandmother. She was a wonderful woman. As I said in the eulogy I gave, she knew about service to her family. I never heard her complain about anything. She took care of her family well, and loved us extremely well. All that being said, I think she's left quite a legacy...and I will miss her terribly.
The weekend (and I use that term loosely b/c I was there less than 48 hours) was still a blessing. It was wonderful to see my family, and there was much rejoicing over the life that my grandmother (and grandfather) lived. It was really saying goodbye to both of them because my grandfather was cremated and we hadn't buried him yet. So he was placed in the coffin with grandma and we buried them together. I still don't know if I've really processed it yet...it's all very surreal. The cool thing is that because there was a race in town and the streets were blocked off on our procession from the funeral home to the church and then from the church to the cemetary we had to take back roads. It was really appropriate that these back roads miraculously (God incidence) took us by all the places my grandparents loved. We drove by where my grandpa used to work, where grandma worked, their old house (which I had never seen), and the church where they were married 65 years ago. It really was a fitting goodbye for my father and for all of us. Bittersweet if you may.
I do believe however, that my continual encounters with death are part of God's plan. I've lost so many people I love in such a short time (not as compared to some...but more people than I would have liked) that I do believe God uses this to prepare me to accept death espeically with my patients, but also to make me a better doctor. Sorry this post was a little random and not well thought out...it's hard to put my thoughts into words right now.
anyway...please continue to pray for me..I have an organic chemistry exam this week and the semester is nearing to a close...which means the MCAT is closer (AHHH!!). And please continue to pray for the souls of my grandparents, and the conversion of my family.

May we do all for the Glory of God and HIS holy name!! Amen!!

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Gracias a todos por sus oraciones este fin de semana pasado. Fue bien la funeral. Yo llegue en la manana viernes y fue bueno de ver mi familia. Claro fue duro, pero hay bendiciones y paz que llega de la misa, de los sacramentos. Estoy agradecida a Dios de nuevo por ser catolio en estos momentos. El sacerdote quieno hizo la misa y bendicione de ataul fue lo mismo quien hizo la funeral de mi abuelo en noviembre, y tambien el es amigo de mi director espiritual (los dos son dominicanos). Esto fue un bendicion GIGANTE!! Todo fue bien...todavia no se si se realmente que ella esta muerte...estoy agradacedia a Dios que yo tenia tanto tiempo con ella. Yo hize la eulogy (no se como se dice...es cuando alguien durante la misa dice algo en memoria de la vida de la persona quien se murio) y estaba pensando mucho en la vida de mi abuela. Ella sabia como servier su familia y ella sabia como amar. Ella es un buen ejemplo para mi vida...mis abuelos fueron casados por 65 anos...es mucho tiempo...me hace falta ellos...y este fin de semana tenia que despidirme de los dos.
Habia una evento en la ciudad entonces para llega a la iglesia de la lugar de funerales, y al cimitero de la iglesia tuvimos que ir en otros calles. Fue planeado de Dios...pasamos en camino todos los lugares de la ninez de mi papa, y los lugares de las vidas de mis abuelos. El edificio donde trabajaba mi abuelo, la casa viejo de ellos (yo nunca he visto antes), la iglesia donde fueron casados...todos estos lugares. Fue bien...bien...como una manera correcto de despidirnos de mis abuelos y de la ciudad. Los cenizas de mi abuelo fueron puestos en al atul de mi abuela...entonces tuvimos que despidirnos de los dos...y no se si he acceptado todo todavia...pero tengo poco de paz. Me hace falta...y es extrano de pensar que todo esto generacion de mi familia y esta muerte. Y cuando estaba con mi abuela en su atul...me di cuenta que corto esta nuestras vidas. Fue como la pimera vez que yo mire alguien morir....es raro...ver tan rapido cambia. Un momento estan vivos ye el otro estan muertos. Que tan corto son nuestras vidas...
Pero creo que Dios esta usando la muerte de tantos personas quien amo para preparme por mi vocacion. Se que no he perdido tanto como algunas personas pero he perdido mas amigos y personas in mi vida tan corta que muchas personas. Y creo nunca voy a ajustar a esto sentimiento pero creo que Dios esta dandome la gracia de acceptar la muerte y tener esperanza en la media de la muerte...no se. Vamos a ver.
entonces, si pueden seguir rezando para las almas de mis abuelos, y la conversion de mi familia. Y si pueden rezar para mi tambien...tengo examen este semana...y mi ano ya esta casi terminado...y esto significa que la MCAT es mas cerca. Por favor, rezan....
Les quiero y rezo para uds. siempre!!

Que podemos hacer todo por la gloria de Dios y por su santo nombre!!

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Grandma...mi abuela

Thank you all for your prayers...my granmother passed away peacefully last night at 1:30am. Please continue to keep her and my family in your prayers.


Gracias por sus oraciones...my abuela se murio anoche a las 1:30 en la manana. Por favor, siguen rezando por la alma de ella y para mi familia. Gracias!!

Sunday, April 6, 2008

PLEASE PRAY!! ...REZA POR FAVOR!!

For anyone who reads this I ask your prayers please...my parents called me today to let me know that my grandmother (the wife of my grandfather who passed away in November) who hasn't been doing well, had a massive stoke yesterday morning and is in the hospital. she will probably die within the next few days...and honestly that's what we're hoping for. That she will die peacefully. However, if she doesn't go she will never be able to use the right side of her body again and we will have to find a nursing home to put her in...and a whole lot of other things.
So I ask that you please keep my father in your prayers at this difficult time, and please pray for my grandmother. She has been catholic her whole life but has struggled in the last few years with the idea of dying. She doesn't have peace about death and doesn't believe that there's life after death...it's hard to explain. I fear that her faith has never really reached the profundity of her soul, that it has stayed in the obligatory realm and now when death and eternity are very real and approaching she is afraid. Please pray that God will be merciful and that she will have peace and that the blessed mother will be there to greet her when the time comes. Please pray for God's will in this situation that whenever it is her time He will take her.
My grandmother's name is Mary Ann. Thank you all so much!!



Por los que lean este...por favor rezan para mi abuela. Mi abuela (la esposa de mi abuelo que murio en noviembre) no estaba bien por alguans meses ya, y mis padres me llamaron hoy para decire me que ella teina un movimiento de su cerebro (no se que es la palabra...cuando parte de su cerebro ya no funciona y tiene paralisis de un lado de su cuerpo). Entonces mis padres estan en camino a Ohio de nuevo. La verdad es que probablemente ella va a morir en estos dias...y realmente esperamos que se muere. Ella estaba bien desperado por meses ya despues de la muerte de mi abouelo. Ella esta cansada y no siente que tiene proposito para vivir. Tiene 93 anos...pero...si viviria vamos a necesicitar a encontrar un lugar donde puede vivir porque no va a tener uso de su lado derecho.
Entonces, pido que rezan para mi papi porque de nuevo tiene muchas decisiones de hacer. Y tambien, especialmente rezan para mi abuela. Ha sido catolico todo su vida pero ha luchado en estos anos pasado de acceptar la realidad de la muerte. Su fe no es firme, es debil y no llega de la profundidad de su alma. Por favor, como mi abuelo, rezan que Dios la da la paz. Que ella puede saber, creer, y abrazar la misericordia y amor de Dios. Que ella puede morir en paz y gracia. Tambien, si pueden rezar que ella muere cuando es tiempo. Y que cuando es tiempo que la Virgin sea alla al lado de mi abuela. Gracias....
Mi abuela se llama Maria Anna! Gracias hermanos y hermanas!!


tambien, les prometo que voy a tratar de nuevo de traducir mis posts....es duro de traducir los largos (como estaba escribiendo) pero voy a tratar por lo menos...tambien no sabia si los que lean espanol estaba leyendo mi blog. lo siento diana!! :)